I know it has been forever since I have posted. I apologize profusely for that.
Let me fill you in on some things. Zoloft is still working. Downside, it has me feeling so good that at times I think that I am 'okay'. So, "okay" that I have forgotten to take it for days and feel the "old me" bubbling up through the cracks in my psyche and reaching the surface.
I have had a few setbacks. Those have included an issue with the child's father. Several in fact. But, we are back on track. I know what you are thinking. How much can you take off of that man.
Answer: I don't know. But, I know I have done things that I have been forgiven for, but have never been one to forgive. So, its time for me to start practicing what I preach. If everyone can change. Then, I need to allow someone else to show me that they are capable of change.
What will I do differently? SLOW DOWN. I am in no HURRY to do anything. I have NO INTEREST in marriage right now. I simply want to enjoy my family and my life. I need to accept that this is my life. But, accepting that will put me into a vulnerable position as to where if this is NOT my life I have to find a way to deal with that. I'm not good at dealing with things that included abandonment of any sort. PERIOD.
But, we shall see. I promise to try my best as to not neglect this "SPACE" anymore. I need this outlet and feel as if I am missing it in the weeks I go with nothing.
Look forward to more "introspection" as that is what this has become.
I would also like to take this to the next level. Maybe more pictures and more devotion to getting my cyber skills together to make this a more enjoyable experience with the audience.
I have a lot of other interests. I love Hair and all things beauty. I am a devoted mom who enjoys finding new recipes to try for her family. I also love writing. There is just so MUCH to me that I feel I want to share. Maybe I'll drop a story or a saying every now and then, I have no clue.
But, I'll stick around though.
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