So, small setback at Wal-Mart yesterday that I must report. I got aggravated with the wireless worker and my card I was trying to buy in his face. But, I was waiting awhile and he just insisted on helping everyone but me. Could I have handled it better. Not at that time.
I have been at such a high stress level for so long, that I'm now finding myself in a manic state. Now, I can recognize that I'm in one, but I can not control my actions when I become "outside of myself".
In a previous post I talked about how outside stimulation is bad for me. Well, since I'm in a manic state (a low one), I have to work extra hard and do this. Something as simple as going to Wal-Mart is not an option for me right now.
But, I changed my number this morning. I feel good knowing that you have literally come to my home to talk to me if you don't have my number. Very few people know where I live, and I doubt if anybody has anything that important to say to me.
So, all of the worry about outside stress is over with. I'm moving on and moving forward. That has always been WORK for me. But, I have never been the one to run from hard work.
I threw away the outside forces and am focusing on my child and myself.
Its hard to be healthy with an Unhealthy mind in a Chaotic world. But, I will keep trying.
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