Well, the long short of it is I asked the father of my child to give me some time and then we can go back to his regularly scheduled program with his child.
Now, don't think this is a disruption to her schedule. Its not. Before we got back together I could count on one hand how many times that man had come to get her, did I mention she is almost three.
I digress, my focus is not setting small goals to further my accomplishments.
My goal today is personal calls at work. I have a bad habit of feeling a "certain way" and needing to talk to somebody. I don't think it interferes with my work because I'm pretty intelligent and I work hard and fast. My productivity is never in question. So, it might slow me down, but since I produce so much more than the average worker, due to my manic states, I'm always above the normal.
So, if I can manage to do that I think I will be fine. I'm sure all jobs have two breaks and a lunch and I need to wait until that time to deal with myself I will be fine.
For whatever reason if I can accomplish this I can accomplish anything.
I am taking steps to make it back to how I was before I flew into a whirlwind of making bad decisions.
"In real life" getting back together was one of the worst decisions I could have made for my child. But, I can't go back in the past and change anything. So, I have to accept it and move on.
So, I have a goal set and I plan on achieving it.
Now, the personal emails may never stop, but shoot I gotta have something right?
Wish me luck.
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